Last week I went for my first check up *downstairs*. I’ll be honest, I’ve been dreading the check up for the past few weeks. I’ve been on at my friends and family about my apprehensions. I’m too young to have a smear test, so I’ve never had a reason to be checked there before. I was sitting in the doctors waiting room noticing the crooked photographs on the wall, trying to distract my mind from the situation. The later the doctor was, the more I became increasingly nervous. Having waited fifteen minutes, I did feel as though I wanted to go to the reception desk and tell her that I had to be somewhere and just walk out. But I carried on flicking through the outdated magazines, “They’re always late, aren’t they?” the woman opposite me said in a hushed voice, so the receptionist wouldn’t here. I nodded in agreement.
I worked in a doctors surgery for the past couple of months. I notice the level of insecurities patients have with doctors and their stubbornness in seeing one particular doctor. Among the elderly, many patients will wait weeks to see a particular GP, they refuse to see anyone else no matter how poorly they are. But the reality is, when it comes to our health we can’t be picky. We can’t let our insecurities of a doctor seeing intimate parts, or having those difficult conversations, tamper our responsibility of seeking help in regard to our health.
The doctor had to take a swab and although the experience was uncomfortable, it wasn’t as bad as I thought. When it comes to things like this, nobody will be able to reassure you or tell you how you will feel. It’s best to just go and do it. I’m so happy that I didn’t let my nervousness or insecurities take over my responsibility of looking after my health and my body. I get the results on Monday and it probably will be nothing, but I would never forgive myself if it were to be something and that I did nothing about it. So ladies and gents, when a doctor asks you to pull your knickers down, drop the insecurities and your knickers. It’s your health that is at risk.